1. |
Haircuts
03:39
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What if my body looked like hers?
What if my clothes fit to my curves?
Is it masculine to drink beer?
And all of my haircuts seem insincere.
What if it’s easier to fit in?
Be uncomfortable in my skin
Is it masculine to hide who I am?
But now that silence is gone
People will hear this and think
How could you sing those lines
Is it feminine to be loud?
Is this my body or something I made myself?
I wanna be in a female fronted band as the front man
Fourth of a century and I’m still the same
Catholic childhood overcomes change
Is it feminine to bloom late?
Took a long time to see the things about me I hate
I wanna be in a female fronted band as the front man
I wanna see what it feels like to be held as a woman
I wanna be feminine
So I’ll make a small change
So this is less severe
And all of my haircuts
Will be sincere
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2. |
Signs of What's Next
02:56
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Big days are ahead is an optimistic thing to say
But it won’t feel right unless we say it
Unless we do it
Nostalgia is a ridiculous thing to like
And it traps us in our old lives
In our old lives
But pretentious is a terrible thing to be so I’ll sound like I am
(I’ll write three minutes songs, pretentious songs are long)
But I’ll say I’m not
I’ll say I’m not
Being happy is different than feeling fulfilled
And will I ever be both
I feel something though
And it’s good
But depression is popular thing to talk to our friends about so
(I’ll send generic texts, “what’s up” or “how’ve you been”)
If I’m not depressed
Will I ever have friends
Or talk to anyone
Again?
I’m going to just take things as they come
Is what Amelia said to me
And maybe if someone that we love says those generic things that people say
It’ll mean everything
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3. |
Physical / Mental
04:20
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Choosing physical or mental health
Trying to retain my sense of self
Choosing physical or mental health
This trigger finger
Will be better
Soon and I will sit down and think about my mental health
All the problems that I haven’t dealt with
I took things for granted
Remember pain-free bar chords
I took things for granted
Now I’m a lot less honest
I hate having to choose between my physical and mental health
My life becomes defined by the progress that I have to tell
Acquaintances who ask “how’s your hand” but never “how’s your head”
Trying to retain my sense of self
Choosing physical or mental health
But Dr. Chen said that this surgery might fail
Cortisone clouds every mental detail
But I took things for granted
Time for a new perspective
I hate having to choose between my physical and mental health
My life becomes defined by the progress that I have to tell
Acquaintances who ask “how’s your hand” but never “how’s your head”
How is your head?
I hate having to choose between my physical and mental health
My life becomes defined by the progress that I have to tell
Acquaintances who ask “how’s your hand” but never “how’s your head”
I hate having to choose between my physical and mental health
Between my physical and mental health
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4. |
Speedruns
03:48
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I don’t wanna feel ashamed of who I am anymore
My stomach’s on the floor
I’m cancelling band practice every week this month
So I can lie in bed watching Kingdom Hearts speedruns
I wrote in my notebook last year I would accept myself
I put that on the shelf
These songs can’t be depressing or I’ll be depressed
So I’ll write these optimistic hooks instead
And it’s small reminders that I’m loved’s what keeps me going
I could find those every day
Friends become best friends when we text each other hearts
Cause that means we’re not alone
Do I want something romantic?
Will I be touched again?
Will I find my one true love or
Could that be replaced by friends?
And all my thoughts are bad jokes on a sitcom with a laugh track
And every joke I make no one laughs at
And it’s small reminders that I’m loved’s what keeps me going
I could find those every day
Friends become best friends when we text each other hearts
And I’ll drink three beers by myself and put on my favorite Chicago bands
Then I’m sure I’m not alone
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What are the good times?
Moments we can’t recreate
What are the good times?
Moments we feel like we’ve changed
What are the good times?
Late nights
What are the good times?
Moments we recount again and again and again
What are the good times?
Barely memories
Remember that night?
What a crazy night
Last night was okay
I’ll stay in today
We recreate the past to have fun
It’s obvious we’re not still twenty-one
When five a.m.’s cliche
What is friendship at an older age
(How do we) break the monotony
(How do we) enjoy people’s company
(How do we) bring back the honesty
And how do we
How do we enjoy our personal lives
How do we enjoy our personal lives
How do we enjoy our personal lives
How do we enjoy our own lives
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6. |
Love Permanence
04:28
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Now I feel strong enough
About who I am
That I don’t need gin
But not sure enough
To make it permanent
Maybe ruts are there to make me
Maybe friends are there to shape me
Maybe I am here to
Has it been long enough
Or will my friends all leave
If I don’t need them
The same way I did
Is love permanent?
Maybe ruts are there to make me
Maybe friends will all forget me
Maybe I am here to
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7. |
Friendly
04:17
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I’ll take a knife to my stomach so I can bleed truth
In hopes that people follow suite
We need a reason to have real conversations
It’s not just what we do
So throw me a wave or a hello
Sometimes that’s the only thing that matters
I’d rather be friendly than a friend
Who doesn’t care about who’s close to them
We mistake love for getting along
We’re not wrong
So fill up my cup of cream and coffee so I don’t drink tonight
In hopes that I will write
The best song I’ll write
In my entire life
So throw me a wave or a hello
Sometimes that’s the only thing that matters
I’d rather be friendly than a friend
Who doesn’t care about who’s close to them
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Since June
02:28
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Dreamed I was alone
and woke up to find my dream came true
I went on my phone
and looked at the messages I got from my friends before I woke up
When I’m in room
it’s not hard to find some company
I’ve been alone since June
but I’ve got some close friends who I love very much that I can talk to
I don’t like being a friend all the time
Never stopping to appreciate what’s in my life
We don’t have to be brave
It’s a choice we can make
I don’t like being a friend all the time
Never stopping to appreciate what’s in my life
I don’t like checking my phone for the time
Never stopping to appreciate who’s in my life
We don’t have to be brave
It’s a choice we can make
(maybe that choice is hard or impossible)
We don’t have to be saved
From our boring lives
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9. |
Silence
03:15
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Silence was my response when
I was asked to choose which celebrity I thought was attractive
When I was ten
I’ve been more comfortable recently with my own attraction
If I think of myself as feminine
It doesn’t feel wrong to think to myself and only myself that maybe I feel
Somewhat normal (somewhat normal)
Unoriginal (unoriginal)
Being attracted
(To some person) to some person on the train ride to work
But it’s different
Since I’ve been like a girl
Silence is my response when
Acquaintances talk about someone’s butt
Who cares if someone’s hot?
Oh I wish I was not attracted
Cause attraction makes me feel less present in my own life
So I’ll rewatch season three of The Office on DVD
and tomorrow will be the day
I sit down and make a change
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10. |
Envious Me
04:44
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I feel envious when I see a band with a thousand likes
Bite my nails out of jealousy
Finally acknowledging
Oooo
Envious me
Am I outside? Am I outside?
When will I be inside?
Am I outside? Am I outside?
When will I be fine?
(Never going in)
I need to be selfish to be selfless
I will be the best that I can be
Oooo
Genuine me
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